Time For Some Honesty…
Okay guys, I need to be open and honest about something. Yesterday, I posted a request for questions for a Q&A video that I plan to do up. The reason I decided on doing that, besides explaining some of the things I do and why I do ’em, was because I wanted the people who follow my blog, or even just the average on-looker that bothered to check out something I did, to know they’re as much a part of what I do as anything…all the while ignoring a bigger problem I’m having.
I feel like I’m coming across as a wannabe, a poser, someone trying to be something they aren’t. People look at me and think I’m trying too hard to be like Linkara, and I think somewhere inside I felt like I wanted…I NEEDED…to be like him. I see him as someone who the people of the internet look up to and value his opinions on the things that matter to him and to them. Though to be fair, the rest of Channel Awesome are very much the same, and as such I apologise for singling out Linkara, he just happens to be my favourite…Well, him and Iron Liz, whom I fully admit to having a fanboy crush on. My girlfriend’s kind of in the same boat as me too, that she feels like a wannabe (hence the name, PinkRangerWannabe), and that she has a fangirl crush on Linkara and intense admiration for Iron Liz.
But getting back to my point, I guess the truth is, in many ways, I am a wannabe. And while I’m being truthful about this, I just wanna say this now: I HATE that. I HATE that I’m a wannabe. I don’t wanna be the next Linkara or Iron Liz, I wanna be the first ME.
My name is Jeffery Adam Phillips. I like anime, video games, wrestling, tokusatsu, and comic books. I’m a geek, and I’m damned proud of it, and I’m not gonna change for anybody. So to anyone that follows my blog, that wanders in to take a read, what you see is what you get. I will continue to do as I like, and it will not be so I can be Linkara or anybody else, but because it’s what I like to do. That might come off as cliché, as the proofreader seems to suggest, but I don’t care. This is what I do because this is what I like to do and what I want to do.
So I’m not “That Guy With The Poké Ball”, I’m not a member of Channel Awesome, and I damned sure am not the Irate Pokémon Gamer ‘cuz if I was I’d put a bullet in my head! So abandon all delusions of grandeur, ye who have chosen to enter here, ‘cuz I’m Jyger, and this is Jyger’s Rant!
Posted on February 19, 2012, in Miscellaneous and tagged Channel Awesome, Comics, Honesty, Identity Crisis, Iron Liz, Linkara, Pokémon, That Guy with the Glasses, Tokusatsu, Wrestling. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.
very well written jyger 🙂 be you and that will always be good enough